Friday, March 28, 2008

Yesterday's stats

My computer wigged out last night right before I was going to leave a blog post, so I turned it off (force-quit--really) and left it off and actually did the dishes for once. So here's yesterday's food log and workout.

B: Whole wheat flaxseed pancakes (2) w/ sugarfree syrup and 1/4 cup blueberries; 1 orange; 2 eggs
Snack: 2 Quaker Oats Granola bars
Lunch: 1/2 Jimmy John's Slim 5 sub; 1 bag potato chips; 1/2 cup diet coke
Snack: 1/2 Jimmy John's Slim 5 sub; 1/2 cup diet coke
Supper: Homemade chicken nuggets, baby baked potatoes (5), carrot slices
Snack: Banana protein ice cream

65 minutes stationary bike, Steady State (moderate intensity)

So yeah, high calorie day for me. Like my computer, I kinda wigged out yesterday morning in the food department. I'm not really sure what went wrong in my head- as it was, I was just kinda feeling like...oh, I can't really describe it perfectly. Starting at breakfast already, I just wanted to kinda break free or something. Then, we ended up rushing out of the house and the only thing I managed to grab was 2 granola bars, didn't even think about grabbing my lunch. So I ended up wigging out about that. I don't know why, but yesterday felt like I was going to get into starvation mode way too easily, and I know most of it was mental. Something unconscious that isn't quite conscious yet. It's a bit similar to the feeling I get when I have to share food with someone else, kinda like I'm scared I won't get enough, even though there's more on the plate than I could ever think of eating. Perhaps there's an underlying anxiety issue there that I'll have to work on. However, given what I did have, I didn't have any more (and believe me I could have, even though I wasn't hungry). I stopped myself. I didn't even sneak any of my daughter's chocolate bunny. And that Reese's Easter Egg is still sitting on the counter. I'm usually able to forget about it, cause it's fairly well hidden, but every so often I catch a glimpse of it. Haven't caved to it. Haven't caved to the ice cream all week either.

I'm back on track today. This morning for breakfast, I really wanted to "let my hair down" so to speak, and just eat Cheerios with my daughter (or Cap'n Crack Berries), but I told myself "I'm in fat-burning mode right now, no hair down until mid-May." Not a whole lot of roadblocks for today. I just need to stay out of the kitchen. Tomorrow and Sunday will be a different story however. Tomorrow, I'm traveling to my parents' house for most of the day, and while I don't snack while I'm there anymore, they aren't exactly known for eating healthy meals. And of course, they're ordering pizza (my favorite kind too). So I'm going to bring stuff to make a great salad, and make that the main course of my meal, with a slice of pizza, probably a slice of cheesesticks, and a slice of dessert pizza. Not great, but better than I could do (easily 2-3 slices of pizza and 2-4 cheesesticks).

For Sunday, I believe I may need to stop at a grocery store and pick up a good-looking veggie tray. We're having a game day, which means we sit around all day and play role-playing games (never figured me for one of those, did you?). While it's somewhat fun for me, it's also uber-boring, which means my hands start twitching and the snacks start flowing. Into my mouth. And it's not the healthy options. Hence the need for a veggie tray. I've complained before about how long it takes to chew raw veggies and how annoying it is, but for this, I'll make an exception. It'll keep my mouth busy without creating a calorie load.

So those are my roadblocks for this weekend. I may not get on to post tomorrow, but I'll make sure I get something on Sunday.

Today's meal plan:
B: 2 eggs, bowl of FiberOne cereal (1 cup total) (done)
Snack: pumpkin seeds, prunes (5)
Lunch: Leftover spaghetti
Snack: orange, 2 hard boiled eggs
Supper: Tacos
Snack: none, or pudding, if I make it

Today's workout plan: TT2k4; HIIT on elliptical 30/90


Rob Tucker said...

You're on fire lately - both with the blog and with your workouts and eating. Good choice to 'not let your hair down' until later.

Beck said...

So, this is going to sound REALLY weird, but bear with me. Do you have a lot of brothers/sisters? Or was money/food tight growing up? It was that way for me, and I'm seriously wondering if that's why I feel like I have to eat everything in one sitting. I can't have a bag of candy sitting in my house and just eat a couple pieces a's all or nothing. I wonder how much of that has to do with the idea that was instilled at a young age - if I don't eat it now, it won't be there later. Does that even make sense?


It looks like you made good food choices. You're doing great!

Carrie said...

Beck, those are good questions. I honestly think some of it has to do with a perfectionistic nature, and/or a selfish nature. As I was growing up, we didn't have any issues with food being tight, although money was sometimes. Until I was 11, I only had one sister, so I don't think it has to do with that.

I honestly have no idea where the food anxiety comes from, unless it has something to do with how I would come home from school (where kids tormented me from grades 4-8) and eat for like 4 hours straight. Thoroughly possible, although snacking is really only a problem for me when I'm bored. Otherwise, it's just the instant gratification of certain choices over others.

Well, enough of my psyche for today. Those were good questions though, they made me think!