Being "Good"

Sorry, haven't quite gotten back into the habit of writing on the blog. I've been keeping on myself though! Haven't weighed in lately (as in like the last two weeks or so), but definitely feeling better, which is huge in and of itself.

I got my three workouts in last week, on Monday, Thursday, and Saturday. Saturday's workout was the hardest, mostly because I wiped myself out first with kettlebell, squats, lunges, and push-ups, then did Tabata Kettlebell Swings (20 seconds "on," 10 seconds "off"). I had to pause once during the rounds just to breathe, but otherwise I did it with my 20 lb new kettlebell (I'm loving it by the way, it's a pretty royal blue 20 lb bell by GoFit that was bought at Target- sooo much better than the el cheapo Reebok I got a couple Christmases ago at Shopko). Most of my workouts are kettlebell-based right now, and while I still use the DVD every once in a while (esp. since the 8-minute workout included with the 'bell is killer for me right now), I've finally started to move back into doing self-guided workouts. I like those better anyway.

Food's been so much better as well, esp since I've started making sure I remember snacks for between meals. Lately I've been big on apples with 2 tbsp of peanut butter, or a banana with 2 tbsp of Nutella (hazelnut chocolate spread, a bit high in sugar but seriously good, and it gets me to eat bananas). I also went to the grocery store on Sunday, spent less than a hundred dollars (awesome, we've been averaging $112 lately every two weeks), and stocked up on some major produce- lettuce, spinach, potatoes, corn, broccoli, green beans, peas plus fruit; yogurt, and other good stuff that I used to go out and buy without any longing toward the junk food. It felt good, but it's also a lesson in how eating processed food costs more. Note to self- try to limit the junk!

Today's workout was 20 minutes of 30 seconds on, 60 seconds off kettlebell intervals. Good hard stuff. Yay!

Rolling

Amazing that Thursday has come and gone! I haven't had the hardest time this week, and I'm working toward this week's goals.

-Meals haven't exactly been planned out way in advance, but the planning that has gone in is that which pertains to having a quality snack available for morning and afternoon. It has helped immensely. It's always funny how I can have times where I'm thinking, "ah, no snack, no problem, I usually don't need it anyway" but then end up eating my weight in food at mealtimes because I'm either starving or think i have the calorie allotment for it (weird justification, totally not true, mostly because our bodies don't digest large amounts of food as efficiently as small amounts, leading to food sitting in the digestive tract longer and more nutrients-ie calories- being ingested). However, when I have a snack, I feel much better and am able to regulate meals much better.

-I've had two workouts so far this week. Today's workout was short and quick, but I'm working my way back up the intensity scale more slowly than I thought I could. After nearly killing myself with an overly intense workout last week I realized that I need to build up some more of my functional muscle strength again before going all-out in the intensity department.

-Food choices have been much healthier. That's a good thing. Now all I need to do is teach hubby not to use so much pasta and we'll be set. Oh, and I need to hit up the grocery store for veggies. Realized last night that except for a cabbage, some cauliflower, and a bunch of onions, we're out.

I've also been doing some more releasing via the Sedona Method. Basically just getting rid of some of the layers of guilt, control issues, and need for approval and security. It can be amazing how liberating that is. I've built up quite a bit, but I'm seeing the positive side of the coin, which should help in future decisions. It's also helping me re-define why I want to go on this journey again. The re-start is something I've been having a very hard time with, because I've got such a huge fear of failing again. So, it's time to set myself up for winning, and to go all the way!

I'm thinking there's something else I wanted to address, but I've completely blanked. So, I'll sign off for today!

Uh huh...yep

Not sure what tone to take with today's entry.

To be completely honest, I'm experiencing some pretty heavy drag in my mental department- I'm where I'm at, and I DONT LIKE IT. But complaining about it, grabbing another bag of chips or slice of pizza, isn't going to help me out of it.

On the other hand, I realize that the only person that my weight gain affects (without taking into account what it does to relationships due to me beating on myself) is ME. The only person who hates me for not keeping my weight down is ME. The person who keeps making the stupid choices is ME.

So, where does that leave me?

I'm pissed off but not doing anything about it. That gets me (and you, as a reader) abso-freaking-lutely nowhere.

I bought two new pairs of jeans at Goodwill today because nothing else fits. Both were size 14. I gave away my 14's last May because they were too damn big. So, here it is: the tipping point.

I either shit or get off the pot, 'cause nothing's happening otherwise and it's just getting me mad.

I'm the one driving me, and it's time I took the wheel.

Part two never truly got started. False starts, empty hopes. Is this what this is? We'll see by the end of the week. Here's this weeks starting goal: 3 workouts, meals planned and written down.

Really fast quickie

Really fast-

I got a new kettlebell this weekend! Whee!

20# blue, comfy handle, included a short 8-min workout

I think I can live with that. ;)

Time to Get Killer

I'll admit it, I've been drooling. Hang on a minute while I wipe off the keyboard. Craig Ballantyne, author of the Turbulence Training System, has just released all of his monthly workouts for $9.95 each, and I've been looking at them all. I may have a good portion of them, but I realize that I've missed a few, and I would love to get back in the Turbulence Training style of workouts. If you click here, you can check out all the workouts too. If nothing else, it's a good introduction to Turbulence Training without the price ($39.95 or something like that for the basic version, which actually isn't bad for 16+ weeks of workouts, eating suggestions, and the like).

I do realize that I said only a week ago that I've been doing well with my current workout program of Iron Core kettlebells and the strangely-silly-but-there Wii Fit, but I'm thinking I like to change way too often when I'm not on a solid routine, and I would love to get on one of those again.

So, off I go to either drool some more or actually get one of the Bodyweight Workouts. If you hear me scream, it's because I bought one that I already had.

Yeah, so I'm a TT fan, I'll admit it. Can I be Craig Ballantyne's next groupie? *grin*