Not so good weigh-in today: 150.0. Never thought I'd see that number again. I'm guessing I have been having too much fun not watching what I'm eating over the last few days, so it's obviously time to rein it back in. Sigh. Maintenance is a constant battle; losing weight when you truly just want to maintain is even tougher.
Which is true, actually. I do just want to be in maintenance mode. There's nothing in me right now, as I have been focusing as much energy as possible into my paper and my marriage (which is a lot better after this weekend, thank goodness).
I was at my parents' house this weekend, and they have a bathroom of mirrors. Seriously. Three walls have these huge, full-length mirrors that are very interesting, and they give a pretty objective view of yourself when you're getting ready to shower (all I have is a fun-house mirror in my bedroom and a tiny medicine cabinet mirror in my bathroom). I look pretty danged good if I do say so myself. Not that 20% bf person I truly want to be, but definitely no more 170+, 26-28% bf fatty that I'd seen myself as for so many years.
So I look good, but I still haven't accomplished my goal. And my hubby doesn't want me to stop before I reach my goal, because he knows how coming this far has done wonders for my self-esteem. So, although one part of me wants to be in maintenance mode, the other part says "Hell no!" And that side will more than likely be the one that wins out, because it's my stubborn side and it doesn't always know when to quit.
And I've got to figure out some way of getting my sister to stop saying that I look anorexic. Any ideas?
Monday, March 10, 2008
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Strange Thoughts
Some off-the-track thoughts for you tonight, mostly because I'm again tired and haven't got bleep done all night (well, except for the dishes).
Joe Vitale wrote a great blog post today about making money $$. Having been a college student for what seems like most of my adult life- oh yeah, all but two years so far- I'm pretty well sick of living at or under the poverty line. We're ready to buy a house, but my student loans may prevent that from happening. As it is, I did some figuring and realized that we've always spent about 45% of our income on rent, and a mortgage won't let you spend more than 36% of your income on payment. Interesting. So anyway, his post was about making money, and the limiting beliefs that you may have in your unconsciousness that stop you from getting what you want with the Law of Attraction. Well, I realized I have all those limiting beliefs, and then some. Mostly it comes down to me not wanting to be selfish and materialistic, because that's what I was raised with (my mother was both, and still fights it very hard today, but had a nervous breakdown about a year ago that started forcing her to finally look at those issues). So I had to write each of them down, in the negative, and remind myself WHY making money is NOT a bad thing.
Here they are:
1. Money is NOT evil
--You can do so many good things with money
--Education
--Further-reaching impact on the world
2. Money will NOT attract problems
--YOU attract the problems. It's up to you NOT to.
--You are smart and level-headed and would prefer to create solutions.
3. Money will NOT make me a selfish person
--YOU make yourself a selfish person.
4. Wanting money is NOT greedy.
--See #1.
5. Rich people are NOT snobs
--They do not deserve more than you
--They do not do more than you
--They are not luckier than you
--They are not better-placed than you
--They are not happier than you
So, what about YOU? Can you translate these same things to your weight-loss efforts? Do you have unconscious limiting beliefs that may be stopping you (you may see it materialize as self-sabotage)? Do you think skinny people are luckier than you, or have more choices, or do you believe that spending time in the gym is selfish? What's the first thought that came into your head when I asked that first question? Even if it was only a whisper, and you pushed it down faster than Superman saves Lois Lane, what was that thought? Bring it out. Examine it. Understand why you have it. Then, talk to it. Don't rationalize to it, because it's not rational. Don't justify to it, because it doesn't know what justification is.
No, when you talk to it, love it. Love it with all your heart and soul. Why? Because that's the power behind loving your enemies. It's always love that kills them, not revenge or anger.
I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
I'm repeating that to myself a lot these days. I'm trying to eke out the part of me that is my own worst enemy.
I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
Carrie
www.ThatHealthyPerson.com
Joe Vitale wrote a great blog post today about making money $$. Having been a college student for what seems like most of my adult life- oh yeah, all but two years so far- I'm pretty well sick of living at or under the poverty line. We're ready to buy a house, but my student loans may prevent that from happening. As it is, I did some figuring and realized that we've always spent about 45% of our income on rent, and a mortgage won't let you spend more than 36% of your income on payment. Interesting. So anyway, his post was about making money, and the limiting beliefs that you may have in your unconsciousness that stop you from getting what you want with the Law of Attraction. Well, I realized I have all those limiting beliefs, and then some. Mostly it comes down to me not wanting to be selfish and materialistic, because that's what I was raised with (my mother was both, and still fights it very hard today, but had a nervous breakdown about a year ago that started forcing her to finally look at those issues). So I had to write each of them down, in the negative, and remind myself WHY making money is NOT a bad thing.
Here they are:
1. Money is NOT evil
--You can do so many good things with money
--Education
--Further-reaching impact on the world
2. Money will NOT attract problems
--YOU attract the problems. It's up to you NOT to.
--You are smart and level-headed and would prefer to create solutions.
3. Money will NOT make me a selfish person
--YOU make yourself a selfish person.
4. Wanting money is NOT greedy.
--See #1.
5. Rich people are NOT snobs
--They do not deserve more than you
--They do not do more than you
--They are not luckier than you
--They are not better-placed than you
--They are not happier than you
So, what about YOU? Can you translate these same things to your weight-loss efforts? Do you have unconscious limiting beliefs that may be stopping you (you may see it materialize as self-sabotage)? Do you think skinny people are luckier than you, or have more choices, or do you believe that spending time in the gym is selfish? What's the first thought that came into your head when I asked that first question? Even if it was only a whisper, and you pushed it down faster than Superman saves Lois Lane, what was that thought? Bring it out. Examine it. Understand why you have it. Then, talk to it. Don't rationalize to it, because it's not rational. Don't justify to it, because it doesn't know what justification is.
No, when you talk to it, love it. Love it with all your heart and soul. Why? Because that's the power behind loving your enemies. It's always love that kills them, not revenge or anger.
I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
I'm repeating that to myself a lot these days. I'm trying to eke out the part of me that is my own worst enemy.
I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
Carrie
www.ThatHealthyPerson.com
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